Sep 5, 2014

sixteen months with luca byrd

I find myself at this age struggling to stay present with you. In my mind you're still a baby but when I pause to look at you I see a full toddler. Here we are and while I love it I already miss your baby days.

Your hair is long, we often style it into pigtails - your daddy's favorite - and always with a clip in your hair. When you wake without your hair pulled back (you always pull clips and rubberbands out in your sleep), you swipe your forearm across your head impatiently. We long the length, though, and don't plan to cut it anytime soon. It is part of you. Your expressive eyes are as blue as ever and I'm starting to see the reemergence of dimples in your round face, which laughter and smiles come easily to. Your legs are longer but the beloved rolls are still there, and that sweet belly still sticks out as your toddle to meet the world.

Words are garbled but I understand your multitude of them: dog, up, down, a light, dado, ball, mama, baba, LeeAnn, wawa, milk, no, bye bye, hello, lake. We are constantly amazed by how observant you are. you run the hair buzzer across your head like daddy, try to pull on Ellis's socks, and run away with my underwear and necklaces to the other room where I find you doing your best to put them on. And you've figured out how to take your pj's off - uh oh! Bunny Bear is your little bedtime lovey.

Teething has thrown us for a loop again lately. You stalled out with 12 teeth for months, but your eye teeth seem to be pushing through and giving you a hard time now. I hate to see you like this but always welcome the extra nursing and neediness that comes with it.

We can now make it through reading whole books to you. I can't tell you how happy this makes me! Before, you'd get impatient with them but now you're into it. Favorites include Goodnight Moon, Puppy Boo, Where is Baby's Belly Button, and the Highlights books from Grandma.

You delight in Ellis so much - you two are often running circles around the kitchen or diving onto the bean bag, laughing hysterically. The adoration is mutual. You are happiest when you're well-rested and when we spend time outside. Lots of shovels, buckets, and baby-pool play lately.

I take deep breaths at night when you've gone to sleep - our days are busy and you want to be held a lot lately. A moment passes though, and I begin to anticipate the next day with you. You're so smart and fun and a little person. I love life with you and I'm excited at where it's going to take us this month (Lake Burton last weekend and Santa Monica next week!), and all those that follow.  xx

Aug 25, 2014

let your light shine

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Marianne Williamson

Aug 13, 2014

behind the scenes on Jim's photoshoot

In May, Jim shot the cast of Showtime's Homeland at Pier 59 in NYC. It was a big-deal, celebrity-driven shoot, and the photos are just now being released. Luca and I visited the set and met a few of the actors (who were all super sweet to Luca). It's always fun watching Jim work - on set, he's in his element more than anywhere else. If being a mama is my thing, being a photographer is Jim's. He is so good at what he does.

A film crew was on set shooting footage, and on Sunday night we found out why. Showtime is teasing season four of Homeland with the video below. Apparently it aired on the network and now can be viewed anytime on YouTube. Isn't it great!

siesta key, fl

In late July, Luca and I joined my parents and sister on a little trip to Siesta Key, FL. This beach, with its white sands, clean water, and endless shells, is on the Gulf near Sarasota. Growing up, my mama vacationed not only on this beach, but in the very same condo! It was fun to watch Luca play on the beach while thinking about my mama as a little girl doing the same. 

We flew down in my daddy's six-seater Aerostar plane. He's a private pilot and we always traveled on his plane to the beach growing up. I remember feeling sorry for my cousins because they had to drive. ha! It makes us feel all fancy ;) plus the view from the air never gets old. Flying through the clouds somehow has a way of putting my "problems" in perspective. 

Luca was just a few weeks old the first time she flew with Papa, and she's been up with him a lot since. So luckily she's used to the loud engine noise. I'm pretty sure she prefers Papa Pilot to major airplanes because she not only gets special treatment from the crew ;) but gets to run around while we're in the air. It's not pressurized like big planes but I always nurse on take-off and descent, and so far (fingers crossed!) we've not had a problem with her ears.

The last time Luca visited the east coast, it was at Folly Beach and she wasn't even three months old. It was wild to see how much difference a year makes- last year, we were dipping her toes in the water and wondering if she liked it. This year...whoa! She obviously loved it, running straight into the ocean, dipping her little head underwater, and playing with her shovel & bucket like she's been doing it all her life. I can't wait to take her back with Jim and Ellis, too.

Fun little fact: this is the FOURTH ocean that Luca has visited! Atlantic, Pacific, Caribbean, and the Gulf. I hope she grows up to love traveling (okay, and then returning home to mama, AHEM!). 

Until next time, beach! xo